I’ve been reading a lot of interesting essays lately, discussing spirituality as an intellectual or social experience. But some of the nice, polite phrasing makes me want to… well, react strongly.
Paganism (like many other life-paths) gives back what is put into it. You like the jewellery and shiny tools? OK – but these are only aesthetically useful, means to an end. You’re looking more into relationships with gods, stories, the land around you? You’ll get a more intense result. Often, a challenging one that encourages the journey to continue (or stops you in your tracks!).
You put in the energy, the blood, sweat and tears of your Self, and you will find that Self affected accordingly. This could be called spiritual reciprocity, or Cause and Effect. Either way – if you want to feel something truly, you have to explore it. Deeply. Sometimes that is an absolute requirement, if you don’t just want to be content skimming the surface.
It’s not always enough to put things into words – although these can be good guides (as is the intention of this blog). You have to look further, to feel more intensely; gather the courage to let yourself sink – or dive – into the flow of emotion, experience… Life.
I stand on a hilltop and spread my arms, eyes closed, letting the wind and rain buffet me to the ground.
I gasp – and more! – at intense communication with deity.
I laugh, naked and dancing, barefoot on grass.
I dissolve into tears when it’s too much. Then let myself be held and healed.
My Druidry encourages true feeling and experience. I cannot let myself give half-measures – nor do I want to.
We seek the Awen, and ride the consequences.